Playing Catch Up

I am playing catch up in so many ways. Have you ever felt like you just can't get your footing? I have been feeling like that lately. I feel out of the zone. I know I can do better and that is why I am here now, doing this, catching up. 


On a scale of 1-10 I would place my physical well-being at a 6. I have high standards for where I want to be. Not just losing weight or looking good I love being strong. I love the feeling I get at the gym when I impress people for the amount of weight I lift and the intensity I perform at. Last week at the gym one of the trainers said I was a "beast tearing it up" and that is how I knew I was doing something right. On that same note, one thing I feel is holding me down a little is the health of my spine. After seeking out a chiropractor for severe back pain, I know I need to work those kinks out. I have been working on stretching my back and working on a foam roller. MY next step is to seek out a chiropractor that will just adjust me. I fully believe the health of your spine effects your total health. My physical well-being can be improved by me consistently staying active and eating clean. I should also get regular check-ups and continue taking my vitamins. 
My spiritual well-being I would place a little lower, maybe a 5. I am not proud of this, but its honest. I feel like I haven't worked on this much and I haven't payed much attention to this aspect of my life. There is a lot of room for improvement and a lot missing. I want to have that spiritual part of my life. I will seek out information daily and pray. I will also start reading the Bible daily, even if for 5 minutes a day with my children. My daughter has been asking to go to church (I am so proud of her) so maybe it is time I try to fit it in our schedule. 
My psychological well-being. This could be a 5 somedays a 4 (haha). I know some of the main causes of my mental frustration. I am looking for more productive ways to express my feelings. I have always been one of those people who hold back their feelings to protect the feelings of others. Sometimes it comes in handy , but it can really eat at you. I am not a very angry or negative person, but I really need to express myself more. The fact that I am doing this is a small step (yay). I have also held back a lot of thoughts, dreams, desires and feeling out of fear. I have always feared expressing my true feelings. I am not exactly sure why. Maybe out of rejection or disappointing others. It sounds dumb when I put it out here like this. Ways for me to improve my psychological well-being would to be open and honest about my feelings and thoughts. I also think removing the things in my life that bring me down is a good idea. I think the exercises that we have been doing are great and helping me focus on good and relaxation. 
The Crime of the Century exercise was fun to me. I loved imagining the colors shooting from my body. I imagined with every breath they shot out brighter and bolder. I did get emotional the first time I did it. There is one thing that I feel is brining me down and I think that is affecting all the colors of my rainbow. I look forward to doing this exercise because I like all the imagery it uses.